I found this letter that I wrote to Ryan, aka "Baby S," the morning I found out I was pregnant. I can't believe that this: has actually become this sweet little guy: Here is the letter: July 18, 2012 My dear Baby S, What an amazing morning. Right now, this is a secret between just you and me. And your big sister Faith. You had a sister who did not live outside my tummy. She was beautiful and would have loved you so much. You are my rainbow. I had a feeling you were coming soon. Last week, the neighbors across the street took a picture of our house with a rainbow landing right in it. Your Aunt Val also dreamed last week that I got two positive pregnancy tests. I love you so much. I’m scared to death. I just want to sit in the house on our couch for the next 8 months to try to keep you safe. I can’t do that, though. Please know that I love you so very much. Please grow strong and healthy and be born healthy. You are due March 31, 2013. How are we going